All Roads Lead To God

In my quest to find answers, answers to the questions, “why am I here?” and “this can’t be all there is, can it?”,  I went down many paths:

  • Churches of varying denominations
  • Healers
  • Psychics
  • Spiritualists
  • Metaphysical books
  • Seminars
  • Programs

But, I wasn’t finding the answers I sought.  It was frustrating because I spent 10 years relentlessly seeking yet my outer circumstances barely changed. I was still, essentially, the same person.  Sure, I was more thoughtful but I wasn’t much happier.  Not as much as I thought I would be after 10 years of absorbing spiritual material and working with healers.

Then one day I had a realization.  I had been traveling down this path, this road, seeking God/Universe/Source/call it what you will.  But, it was always outside of me.  I thought the answers were out there.  In reality, the answers were inside of me all along.

Once I began to be still, journal and hear what my heart was saying, I realized I always knew the answers–I just hadn’t been listening.

Do I still read books, see healers, listen to seminars?  Yes.  Yes, I do.  But, the difference now is that I seek the answer within, first.

  • Will this enlighten me?
  • Will this move me forward?
  • Is this the next, best, step for me?

And, depending on the answer I receive, I join that program.  Or not.  I work with that healer.  Or not.  I listen to that seminar.  Or not.

For me, and I daresay for many of you, all roads do lead to God/Universe/Source.  After exhausting ourselves looking out there, walking down various paths for answers, we realize that all of the paths we’ve taken have led us back inwardly to our truth and to ourselves.

So, set up a daily practice to get into the habit of looking within.  For me, it is prayer, journaling and automatic writing.  For others, it could be meditation, sitting in nature or any of a dozen other methods.  Whatever speaks to you, try it.  And then get into the habit of daily practice, first thing in the morning.  I have found that doing so helps me to stay centered throughout the day and also allows me to pay attention to the little nudges and guidance that I would otherwise miss.

Thank you so much for reading.

In love, I am

tracy elizabeth

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How Did We Get Here?

In my journey to become self-realized, I have come across many spiritual doctrines.  The most popular one being “we are here to learn lessons.”

I bought into this for a while, but it never felt quite right.  Something within me, that same something that I call my higher-self, kept saying, UH UH, umm, NO!  But I thought, well, these spiritual teachers and gurus surely know more than I do.  They’ve been on the path for decades!

But one thing I have learned is to listen to that voice and to TRUST that feeling I get when something feels not-quite-right.  I have learned, by making many mistakes and not trusting, that I must look within.  My higher-self has never been wrong, though at times I thought it was.  Those instances, upon reflection, I realized were not initiated from my higher-self.  (It takes practice to discern the difference, so make sure to read my 3 tips on listening to your inner guidance here, here and here.)

Here is what my higher-self has told me and what I have come to know:  I am, you are, everyone is an individual manifestation of God.

Get ready.

We ARE God, in human form.  Yep!  That’s what I know.  There is no doubt within me regarding this.  None whatsoever.  You can agree or disagree.  You have that right.  (If you disagree, stop reading right now or you’ll just get more upset/angry/pissed off at the rest of this article.  Just sayin’.)

And so, as individualized aspects of God, we KNOW everything there is to know.  There are no lessons to learn.  What could we learn that we don’t already know?  NOTHING.  Thinking that we have lessons to learn will keep us experiencing, guess what?  More lessons!

Think about it.  You Are All There Is.  There is NOTHING that is not YOU.  How could you not know everything?

Really, let that sink in.

But, Tracy, you protest, I don’t know everything.  Of course you do.  You just don’t remember that you know everything.

Let’s say, no let’s not say.  Here it is straight out:  you are pure thought, pure love, pure consciousness.  There is naught but you.  You Are All There Is.  And as you exist for millennia, you contemplate yourself for what else is there to contemplate?  You Are All There Is.

And then, at some point, you decide you want to experience yourself from a different perspective.  From outside of yourself, apart from yourself.  But how can you, when nothing else exists outside of you?

So, you cause yourself to forget the truth of who you are.  Doing so will enable you to learn about yourself from a different perspective.

But, even better, why not give yourself choices?  Why live in Stepfordville knowing only one option?  You can’t really know yourself if you only have one option of living.  Well, you could, but it would get boring fast, with only one way to experience everything.

So, you create duality.  Contrast.  Up. Down.  Right.  Left.  Hot. Cold.  Good.  Bad.  Oh boy, we’re in for a wild ride now!

And, as you are God, you don’t limit yourself.  You can have whatever you can conceive of.  Nothing is off limits.  You have free will.  Whatever you choose to believe will be delivered to you without judgment.   How can you experience the totality of yourself if you limit what you can experience?

You cannot.

After all, this is your playground.  It’s not real.  (It feels real, to be sure.  That’s part of the experience.)  It’s a way to create new experiences and to FEEL  the emotions of those experiences:  happiness, sadness, boredom, love, hate, fear, grief, you name it.  These are emotions that are meant to be felt and lived and they pass through making way for the next experience and emotion.  God knew that this was his playground, that these lives were illusion.  And that each life was an experience unto itself.

After all, God (We) are eternal.  Our souls are eternal and have no fear.  None.  Our souls never die.  Never. Ever.

But somewhere along the line things got skewed.  And rather than being the creators (of experience) that we are, we decided emotions were bad, that life was hard and to be endured and, if we were lucky, we ascended to a heavenly plane when we passed on.  But only if we were very, very, very good.

We decided that we had no power and that we were at the mercy of forces outside of ourselves.  Blaming circumstances, people, the government, religion, we kept ourselves a prisoner of our own making.

We gave it away, our power.  And so we spend years, decades, lifetimes experiencing “lessons” over and over and over again.  Because, as I mentioned earlier, the Universe does not judge.  And if you want to learn lessons, then lessons you shall learn.  And if you want to learn those lessons through hate, fear, pain, illness, poverty, then you shall learn that way as well.

I have chosen to reclaim my power.  I have chosen to FEEL each and every emotion in that moment and allow it to pass through me.  I have chosen, from this point forward, to create my life experiences with ease and joy.  And grace.  I have chosen to stop learning lessons and start living my life the way it was meant to be lived.

It doesn’t have to be hard.  It starts with a choice.  A deliberate choice with action behind it.

Decide.  Decide, today, that you will no longer settle for unecessary struggle and pain and lessons to learn.  You are the creator of your life experiences.  You and only You can decide the life you want.  Don’t settle for a life lived by default, a life determined by others and circumstances.  Remember, not choosing IS a choice.  What have you got to lose?

I’m choosing a grab the brass ring, pie in the sky, love and joy filled life.  It won’t always be rainbows and unicorns, but it will be infinitely better than a life lived by default.

What will you choose?

In love, I am

tracy elizabeth

Radical Self Love

LoveOn this journey that I’ve embarked upon, the journey to what I call Living as My Higher Self, I often find myself called to examine areas of my life where I am, well, falling short. In my last article, I wrote about how I was clearing out to allow the new in. New choices, new prosperity, new experiences, a new Me. And that’s a great start. But what has become increasingly clear is that that is exactly what it is, a start. A beginning.

As the journey unfolds, I find it becomes harder. Or maybe harder is not the word. I’m not sure I know what the right word or words are. While letting go of my things, some I love very, very much and don’t really want to part with, there is a part of me that feels more expansive. More ALIVE. Unfettered. I feel a sense of wondrous openness.

Does that make sense?

So I realize that the part that is hanging onto my dearly loved possessions is the me that must expand as well. The me that must operate in partner to my Higher Self. That which I call, Little Me.

As aspects of Little Me bubble up to be witnessed and released, so too my awareness of what lies hidden beneath grows.

I began to wonder, when did it begin? When did I stop caring about myself? When did I stop putting myself first? When did I start believing I was unworthy of self love?

Not taking time for myself, taking time to be alone and just BE, whatever that means for me at that moment is a way I denied myself self love. And I wasn’t simply denying myself self love, I was showing myself I had no value, that I wasn’t worth taking the time to nurture myself.

Please understand, when I say putting myself first, I don’t mean in a selfish, “it’s my way or the highway kind of way.”  That’s not what it’s about. But you cannot give to others if your well is dry and you have nothing to give.

Self love is about committment. It’s about trusting myself. It’s about being able to rely on myself.

I realized that throughout my life, I wasn’t showing up for me. I would promise myself I would do this or that, but I rarely followed through. I would get myself into situations that I thought I could handle, but quickly realized I was in way over my head and I would have to have my husband bail me out. I could never count on myself at all, not unless the situation was extremely dire and then, and only then, would I step up to the plate. And it felt great. I did it! But back I would fall into my old habits of not showing up for myself, forgetting that I had even stepped up in the first place.

Some of you have known me for a very long time and remember when I wouldn’t leave the house without looking a certain way. I studied fashion design, after all, and loved designing, making and wearing my creations. There was a part of me that LOVED caring for myself, using luscious creams and lotions, having my hair done and all that went with being a girly-girl. But it wasn’t just the act of adorning myself, it was the love for myself behind it. The love that said, I am worth the effort. And though this may sound somewhat superficial, it really isn’t.

Not caring how I look, whether I wear wrinkled clothes or not; whether I style my hair, or not; whether I put on some lipgloss, or not: these are all symptoms of a bigger issue.

When did I decide I wasn’t worth the effort? When did I decide I had no value?

In the Bible, verse James 2:26, it reads: For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also.

All the spiritual work (faith) I’ve been doing is great, but not putting it into practice (works) wasn’t really making my growing awareness tangible–I wasn’t allowing it to become a part of me. I was letting my fear of who I would become, stop me from, well, BEcoming. Because Little Me couldn’t handle not knowing what that looked like, I stayed trapped in the same habits, the same unloving thoughts, the same inaction.

So, even though ironing my clothes or wearing lipgloss may seem superficial, it is how I choose to begin to love and accept myself. It is how I choose to demonstrate, by beginning with these small actions, that I am worthy of self love and worthy of effort.  And these small actions will snowball into even greater awareness of how I can begin showing myself Radical Self Love.

This is the first step of many along the path of showing up for myself in all ways and at all time.  It is the way that I can begin to embody the truth of who I am, truly, WHO MY SOUL IS and will allow me to shine that light behind me. For when I shine that light, I am leading the way so that all who follow step into the light of TRUTH of who THEIR SOUL IS CALLING THEM TO BE. For we are all ONE, and as I grow and expand to embrace ALL THAT I AM, so too, will YOU.

In love, I am

tracy elizabeth