Do You Hear Voices?

This thought popped into my head this morning as I was walking to work and inspired this article. As I toyed with this idea, I began to wonder how differently would my life, and your life, be if we listened to the voice in our head.

Not the voice that says you can’t be, do or accomplish anything. Not the voice that berates you for mistakes made, past or present. Not the voice of negativity–we’ve all heard enough from that voice.

No, I’m talking about the voice of possibility. The voice that says, hey, call that person. Or, hey, apply for that job. Or, hey, how about stopping into this store for yogurt. We pooh-pooh and ignore that voice. I don’t have time to talk to that person. I’ll never get that job. I don’t want any yogurt right now, thank you. And then, that evening, you feel like having yogurt. But you have none because you didn’t listen to the voice. Or, you hear from someone else that the person you were meant to call offered them an opportunity that you would have loved to have. And that job you didn’t apply for because you didn’t think you would get it? Well, it went to a colleague who you know is not as qualified as you are.

All of these scenarios are familiar to us because in some form or another, it has happened to us. We can all recall a time when we thought, “I knew I should have done x, y or z!” But we didn’t. We allowed “logic” to tell us why we shouldn’t listen to that voice. 

The Universe doesn’t work “logically.” Sometimes, nothing, or seemingly nothing comes of an action we take that was prompted by our Soul. Because taking that action doesn’t immediately result in having x or the opportunity arising immediately, we learn to ignore that voice or discount it.

Let’s stop doing that, shall we?

The Universe, if we allow it, will orchestrate our lives in a delightful, magical manner. But we have to trust. And that trust begins by listening to the voice in your head.

(Again, I’m not saying listen to the voice of negativity. Or, if you happen to be psychotic, please get medical help. Quickly.)

There is nothing to lose by following the leads we get. Sometimes, yes, it’s not convenient. Who am I kidding? Many times, it’s not convenient. But I have found whenever I do what is not convenient, that’s when the magic happens. That’s when the miraculous appears and circumstances unfold that I could never have arranged even if I could conceive of all the moving parts necessary to bring it to pass.

We live in a benevolent Universe. A loving Universe that wants the best for us in every moment. (But, Tracy, you say, many of my experiences have not been beneveolent or loving. I get it, but that’s another article.) And that best comes from listening and taking action on what you’re given. If you were to consistently follow your inner guidance and take action immediately, I know for certain you would not recognize your life in a year. It would be beyond your wildest imaginings. In a good way.

So the next time that voice whispers, listen. Listen to it. And take action. Again. And again. And again. And watch what unfolds.

Here is a mantra that I say to myself every day, many times a day:

“The Universe conspires on my behalf in every moment.”

I encourage you to adopt it and see if your perspective doesn’t change for the better.

In love, I am

tracy elizabeth

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Are You Judging Yourself?

Recently, my husband and I went on vacation to Las Vegas.  And while there, I decided to treat myself to several spa visits over the course of several days during our stay. What’s great about going to a spa is that for each day that you are having a treatment, you also get to use the spa facilities for the entire day:  steam room, sauna, jacuzzis, plunge pool, gym.  In theory, this sounds awesome.  The reality, for me, was less so.

After realizing I didn’t have a bathing suit I was cheerfully informed by the staff that it was clothing optional in this women’s only spa.  After I regained consciousness, I entertained the thought of walking unclothed in a spa in the company of other women for a nanosecond. I then prevailed upon my husband to drive me to no less than 5 stores before I found a bathing suit at Macy’s. Whew! Disaster averted.

I scheduled my visits first thing in the morning and it was great.  Not many guests around at 8:00 am.

But, there was a part of me that couldn’t enjoy the experience.  During the treatments, I kept thinking, “Oh, I’m fat.  She (esthetician) must be disgusted.  She probably cannot wait to be done.”  And on and on went the endless litany of negative self talk.  Suffice it to say, my treatments were not as pampering or enjoyable as they could have been.

I thought, ok, it’s early, so it’s safe to go into the steam room, sauna and jacuzzis.  And it was.  I turned my mind off and drifted into a peaceful contentment.  But it was short lived.

As soon as I spied another woman, I frantically grabbed for a towel to cover myself as I walked to the jacuzzi, only feeling safe after I had entered the warm water and was partly hidden by the bubbles.  Ah, safety.  But then came along two other women and they were going to get into the jacuzzi, too!  As I looked in horror at these two slim women I began to feel ashamed again.  And the litany of negative criticisms in my mind began again.  I sat there, like a deer caught in headlights.  I was terrified.  What do I do?  I can’t leave, they will see me in all my pudginess.  But if I stay, more will come and it will be misery squared.

I felt such anguish and all the peacefulness I had enjoyed vanished.  I wanted to cry.

Then, something came over me and I heard my higher self say internally, “Tracy, get up and walk out, stand at the top of the steps and towel yourself dry.  Do not rush.”

I listened.  And as I towelled myself dry, out in the open with other women around, I realized something.

No one was watching me.  No one was pointing or snickering or looking at me in disgust.  No one was paying any attention to me whatsoever.

I put on my robe and went about my business showering, dressing, and still not one person looked at me funny or glared at me.

And then it hit me.

The truth of it was that the only one judging me, was me.  Finding fault, criticizing, belittling.  Those thoughts were my thoughts and mine alone.

I barely enjoyed my treatments and spa time because of my own internal, negative dialogue.  Telling myself that other people are thinking this or that was my way of not allowing pleasure into my life.

Pleasure in nurturing and caring for myself.  Pleasure in allowing myself to be pampered.

I sat and journaled and went really deep to understand why I would deny myself these luxurious experiences and the answer was that a part of me feels undeserving and unworthy.  A part of me will only allow me to enjoy so much, before the mechanism kicks in that says, “oh no, that’s enough joy and pleasure for you, my dear!”  And back down I go, to the amount of joy and pleasure that feels “safe.”  That feels “allowable.”

These feelings and self imposed limitations are going to require more introspection in the days and weeks to come.  I am determined to get to the root of it once and for all. But, my intention with this article was to inspire you to go within and ask yourself what negative self talk are you allowing yourself to listen to?  Where in your life are you denying or limiting the amount of joy and pleasure you can experience, and why?  What is the root cause of it?

Because, one thing I am sure of is a life without pleasure is an unhappy, miserable existence.  And lving without it is not why we were created.

Pleasure, joy, self love is our birthright and it is time that we allowed ourselves to welcome it into our daily lives. Not in a selfish, it’s all about me way, but in a way that fulfills us and allows us to be able to give back to our families, loved ones, friends, pets.

Life without pleasure is barren and cold.

Take time for yourself.  Add in small doses regularly to increase your threshhold of how much pleasure you will allow into your life.  Start with a bubble bath once a week.  Or perhaps a walk in nature is what nurtures you.  Maybe painting brings you joy.  Whatever it is, do it and do it consistently, thereby increasing your capacity for joy and pleasure.

It is important to take time for you.  You are important.  You matter.

In love, I am

tracy elizabeth

All Roads Lead To God

In my quest to find answers, answers to the questions, “why am I here?” and “this can’t be all there is, can it?”,  I went down many paths:

  • Churches of varying denominations
  • Healers
  • Psychics
  • Spiritualists
  • Metaphysical books
  • Seminars
  • Programs

But, I wasn’t finding the answers I sought.  It was frustrating because I spent 10 years relentlessly seeking yet my outer circumstances barely changed. I was still, essentially, the same person.  Sure, I was more thoughtful but I wasn’t much happier.  Not as much as I thought I would be after 10 years of absorbing spiritual material and working with healers.

Then one day I had a realization.  I had been traveling down this path, this road, seeking God/Universe/Source/call it what you will.  But, it was always outside of me.  I thought the answers were out there.  In reality, the answers were inside of me all along.

Once I began to be still, journal and hear what my heart was saying, I realized I always knew the answers–I just hadn’t been listening.

Do I still read books, see healers, listen to seminars?  Yes.  Yes, I do.  But, the difference now is that I seek the answer within, first.

  • Will this enlighten me?
  • Will this move me forward?
  • Is this the next, best, step for me?

And, depending on the answer I receive, I join that program.  Or not.  I work with that healer.  Or not.  I listen to that seminar.  Or not.

For me, and I daresay for many of you, all roads do lead to God/Universe/Source.  After exhausting ourselves looking out there, walking down various paths for answers, we realize that all of the paths we’ve taken have led us back inwardly to our truth and to ourselves.

So, set up a daily practice to get into the habit of looking within.  For me, it is prayer, journaling and automatic writing.  For others, it could be meditation, sitting in nature or any of a dozen other methods.  Whatever speaks to you, try it.  And then get into the habit of daily practice, first thing in the morning.  I have found that doing so helps me to stay centered throughout the day and also allows me to pay attention to the little nudges and guidance that I would otherwise miss.

Thank you so much for reading.

In love, I am

tracy elizabeth

How Did We Get Here?

In my journey to become self-realized, I have come across many spiritual doctrines.  The most popular one being “we are here to learn lessons.”

I bought into this for a while, but it never felt quite right.  Something within me, that same something that I call my higher-self, kept saying, UH UH, umm, NO!  But I thought, well, these spiritual teachers and gurus surely know more than I do.  They’ve been on the path for decades!

But one thing I have learned is to listen to that voice and to TRUST that feeling I get when something feels not-quite-right.  I have learned, by making many mistakes and not trusting, that I must look within.  My higher-self has never been wrong, though at times I thought it was.  Those instances, upon reflection, I realized were not initiated from my higher-self.  (It takes practice to discern the difference, so make sure to read my 3 tips on listening to your inner guidance here, here and here.)

Here is what my higher-self has told me and what I have come to know:  I am, you are, everyone is an individual manifestation of God.

Get ready.

We ARE God, in human form.  Yep!  That’s what I know.  There is no doubt within me regarding this.  None whatsoever.  You can agree or disagree.  You have that right.  (If you disagree, stop reading right now or you’ll just get more upset/angry/pissed off at the rest of this article.  Just sayin’.)

And so, as individualized aspects of God, we KNOW everything there is to know.  There are no lessons to learn.  What could we learn that we don’t already know?  NOTHING.  Thinking that we have lessons to learn will keep us experiencing, guess what?  More lessons!

Think about it.  You Are All There Is.  There is NOTHING that is not YOU.  How could you not know everything?

Really, let that sink in.

But, Tracy, you protest, I don’t know everything.  Of course you do.  You just don’t remember that you know everything.

Let’s say, no let’s not say.  Here it is straight out:  you are pure thought, pure love, pure consciousness.  There is naught but you.  You Are All There Is.  And as you exist for millennia, you contemplate yourself for what else is there to contemplate?  You Are All There Is.

And then, at some point, you decide you want to experience yourself from a different perspective.  From outside of yourself, apart from yourself.  But how can you, when nothing else exists outside of you?

So, you cause yourself to forget the truth of who you are.  Doing so will enable you to learn about yourself from a different perspective.

But, even better, why not give yourself choices?  Why live in Stepfordville knowing only one option?  You can’t really know yourself if you only have one option of living.  Well, you could, but it would get boring fast, with only one way to experience everything.

So, you create duality.  Contrast.  Up. Down.  Right.  Left.  Hot. Cold.  Good.  Bad.  Oh boy, we’re in for a wild ride now!

And, as you are God, you don’t limit yourself.  You can have whatever you can conceive of.  Nothing is off limits.  You have free will.  Whatever you choose to believe will be delivered to you without judgment.   How can you experience the totality of yourself if you limit what you can experience?

You cannot.

After all, this is your playground.  It’s not real.  (It feels real, to be sure.  That’s part of the experience.)  It’s a way to create new experiences and to FEEL  the emotions of those experiences:  happiness, sadness, boredom, love, hate, fear, grief, you name it.  These are emotions that are meant to be felt and lived and they pass through making way for the next experience and emotion.  God knew that this was his playground, that these lives were illusion.  And that each life was an experience unto itself.

After all, God (We) are eternal.  Our souls are eternal and have no fear.  None.  Our souls never die.  Never. Ever.

But somewhere along the line things got skewed.  And rather than being the creators (of experience) that we are, we decided emotions were bad, that life was hard and to be endured and, if we were lucky, we ascended to a heavenly plane when we passed on.  But only if we were very, very, very good.

We decided that we had no power and that we were at the mercy of forces outside of ourselves.  Blaming circumstances, people, the government, religion, we kept ourselves a prisoner of our own making.

We gave it away, our power.  And so we spend years, decades, lifetimes experiencing “lessons” over and over and over again.  Because, as I mentioned earlier, the Universe does not judge.  And if you want to learn lessons, then lessons you shall learn.  And if you want to learn those lessons through hate, fear, pain, illness, poverty, then you shall learn that way as well.

I have chosen to reclaim my power.  I have chosen to FEEL each and every emotion in that moment and allow it to pass through me.  I have chosen, from this point forward, to create my life experiences with ease and joy.  And grace.  I have chosen to stop learning lessons and start living my life the way it was meant to be lived.

It doesn’t have to be hard.  It starts with a choice.  A deliberate choice with action behind it.

Decide.  Decide, today, that you will no longer settle for unecessary struggle and pain and lessons to learn.  You are the creator of your life experiences.  You and only You can decide the life you want.  Don’t settle for a life lived by default, a life determined by others and circumstances.  Remember, not choosing IS a choice.  What have you got to lose?

I’m choosing a grab the brass ring, pie in the sky, love and joy filled life.  It won’t always be rainbows and unicorns, but it will be infinitely better than a life lived by default.

What will you choose?

In love, I am

tracy elizabeth

What Is God Here To Experience Through You?

Hello everyone.  I wrestled for a month about what I am about to share with you.  Several questions flitted through my mind:

Will anyone resonate with what I’m saying?
Are people going to think I’m a nut case?
Will people unsubscribe in droves?

What I write is divinely guided.  In this case, it wrote itself.  Literally, I felt the urge to write and the words flowed as I struggled to scribble fast enough to keep up.

I really didn’t want to send this out or publish it on my blog.  So, a few weeks went by and then I had lunch with one of my loyal readers, and good friend, Dee.  (Hi Dee!)  And she asked me why I hadn’t sent out my newsletter and reminded me of a previous conversation we had had about the direction my newsletter was taking.

I gave it a great deal of thought.  Truly, I didn’t want to send this out.  But I realized that God/Source/Universe/All There Is wanted this article written and published.  And, it will reach those it is meant to and those who are not meant to identify with it will move on.

I can honestly say that I have reached a place where I am at peace  with that and let the chips fall where they may.

Today’s article may hit some of you in a raw spot, and others may feel a resounding Yes! in their being.  Whichever it is for you, I invite you to keep an open mind, breathe, and really feel and expand into the words that follow.  From that place, you can decide what is Truth for You.

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What Is God Here To Experience Through You?

That’s a pretty controversial title, isn’t it?  And yet, it is what my higher self is calling me to write.

So, what do I mean?

Well, you are here for a reason.

And I don’t mean “your purpose.”  I used to think I had to find “my purpose.”  I thought it was set in stone and I believed that when I finally discovered what that was, the world would spin counterclockwise on its axis, the heavens would part and angels would sing,”AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH.”

But I now know that is not true.

After becoming in touch, truly in touch, with my higher-self, soul-self, God-self, or whatever you may choose to call it, I realized I was following the crowd rather than listening to that truth within that we ALL have access to.

Please don’t take what I write at face value.  Take some time to really give it some thought, spend time in contemplation and really feel what is true for you.

So, the reason you, I and everyone else is here, or even the reason why we EXIST is not to perform some preordained task that we must do in order to find true happiness.

Certainly, what we love most, what we lose track of time doing, what we would do every day of our lives if we could, will certainly lead us down the path of personal fulfillment.

But, it is not the destination that is our reason for being.

It is the Journey.  The Journey is the reason we exist.  The Journey is the reason we were created.

The day in and day out, the mundane, the miraculous, it is all our purpose because only we can experience it in this way.  Our way.

We are individuated expressions of God, All There Is, Source, Universe, call it what you will, we are IT.

And IT desires to experience life in its many forms and shapes.  As people.  Insects.  Dogs.  Cats.  Birds.  Trees.  Earthworms.  Everything and anything you can think of is God, for there is no other consciousness in the Universe.

Instead of getting caught up in “what am I here to do?”, think instead, “what am I here to experience?” and “who am I here to be to have that experience?”

All of life’s wonders and trials are treasured experiences to the Divine.

Why?

Because there is nothing else.

(I’ll have to write a future article about Origins so you can see the broader perspective of where I am coming from.)

I got caught in this trap of thinking what am I here to do, spinning my wheels, looking for the magic purpose and when I thought I had found it, it wasn’t what I expected.  Now that I thought I knew what my purpose was, I didn’t understand why I hadn’t suddenly become happy overnight and why my life hadn’t turned into a fairytale.  Then I thought, oh, this isn’t my true purpose and the (fruitless) search began anew.

When I stopped my frenetic searching and became still, I could finally hear the truth that was within me all along.  The truth that said, “You will search until you die and you will never find it.  Your purpose is not the end, it is the beginning.”

The beginning of a life lived well.  A life of experience.  A life of emotion.  A life of feeling every bit of what life has to offer.

Be a singer.  A rocket scientist.  A dog walker.  A fisherman.  A candlestick maker.  Be whatever you want.  All There Is does not care what profession you pick.  Choose what feels right and good and brings you joy.

But remember that what you DO is NOT why you are here.

You are here to experience.  You are an individual expression of God here to experience life in all its forms, in the daily, mundane tasks, the painful ones and the magnificent ones.  Treasure the moments, all of them.  Experience them fully and then move on to the next moment.

THAT is why you are here.

Don’t waste your life searching for the magic “purpose” that will change everything.  It won’t happen.  It’s like a magician’s smoke and mirrors:  you’ll wake up one morning in 10, 20 or even 30 years and wonder what happened, how did life pass you by and why are you no closer to true happiness and personal fulfillment.

Stop distracting yourself and LIVE your life.

Today, I have consciously chosen to step off the hamster wheel of the never ending search for my purpose and, instead, choose to become the person I am here to BE to experience what God can only experience through me.  Whatever that is, wherever it takes me, I choose to live it fully, in each and every joyous, and sometimes heartbreaking, moment.

Won’t you join me?

In love, I am

tracy elizabeth

This inspires me…

I cannot help but read and re-read this quote by Marianne Williamson. Each time I read it I gain a new insight. It is truly profound.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”